Slapped once again!

One must agree that I have had a few slaps in the face over the last few months! Many blessings, lots of good news, but a few bumps along the way. I have dealt and moved on through all of these and I know that I will move past this one. However, today when I got the results of my blood work and saw that my counts were too low, I nearly lost it! Not to mention that this was at 9am, I put a call immediately into my Dr. to find out for sure what the counts meant, and they didn't call be back until 2pm. That was 5 hours of thinking I probably wouldn't have chemo, hoping that I was somehow wrong, WAITING, and just not knowing what my plan for Friday was going to be. If you do not know me very well, you might not know that I LOVE plans and LIVE for plans, not having a plan, having an unexpected change in my plan this DRIVES ME CRAZY! Needless to say, I was a little bit crazy today and A LOT SAD. So no chemo tomorrow, I will get my blood checked next Thurs., if my counts are back up then I can get chemo next Fri. Oh, and don't think I didn't have a calendar in which I had already written down the dates of every chemo appt. I was going to have through Sept.........these dates are now shot to hell! Side note - I did write them down in pencil......just in case!